Silence

It has been two weeks since her last email. I find this alarming since she is back in the U.S. now. Her last email promised a phone call when she got her cell phone delivered to her there. But I've heard nothing. Not even another email.

I am happy not to be afraid that she has been hit in the war. She is out of that danger now. But I now I am worried about her mental health. She said she was depressed. Is she in a hospital? Is she being interrogated (again) about being lesbian?

I am less afraid now than I was a year ago. I have known all along that there would be mental health repurcssions. How could there not be? But will she get the care she needs?

I have thought about calling her parents, but I am afraid of two things. One, that she is actually there with them and has chosen not to call me. And two, that one of us knows more than the other--more than we are supposed to share.

So I will keep waiting to hear from her.