No response
I haven't heard back from her parents. I am not completely surprised. Even when my ex/partner emailed them she didn't regularly hear back.
The only way to get any answers at this point would be to call them. I just can't bring myself to do it though. In fact, the thought of calling them makes me sick to my stomach.
For one thing, even though I used to keep in contact with them, they never initiated any contact, which makes me feel that they weren't too anxious for it. That makes me feel uncomfortable or at least unsure of myself.
For another, I think they are still angry at having to help my ex/partner clean up the mess she left when she broke up with me. Not my fault, but I know they enjoyed five years of freedom from taking care of her. (Freedom given them when I started to do it!)
And for yet another reason, I am not sure that they would be willing to tell me anything.
And they may not even know anything. Why draw attention to worry?
But worst of all, I actually don't want any bad news. At this point, bad news feels certain.
The only way to get any answers at this point would be to call them. I just can't bring myself to do it though. In fact, the thought of calling them makes me sick to my stomach.
For one thing, even though I used to keep in contact with them, they never initiated any contact, which makes me feel that they weren't too anxious for it. That makes me feel uncomfortable or at least unsure of myself.
For another, I think they are still angry at having to help my ex/partner clean up the mess she left when she broke up with me. Not my fault, but I know they enjoyed five years of freedom from taking care of her. (Freedom given them when I started to do it!)
And for yet another reason, I am not sure that they would be willing to tell me anything.
And they may not even know anything. Why draw attention to worry?
But worst of all, I actually don't want any bad news. At this point, bad news feels certain.
posted by Kate Hatch at 1:00 PM
1 Comments:
Is it that your simply waiting to know that shes ok before you completely let go?
Considering how much you gave and how little she gave in return, not to mention all the other things she did to hurt you- why are you torturing yourself?
My personal mantra in trying to move on from my ex was/is "Retain the knowledge and forget the details"
the details are what really hurt....even now
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