Waiting for the storm

I've been expecting to hear something from her this week. Always a bad idea. Of course I have heard nothing.

She said she expected to done with demobilization by this weekend and that she would be on her way home. Uh, okay. It's the weekend and I've heard nothing.

As usual, I have gotten more and more depressed. Spent the night on the couch again. My shoulders are hunched. And today I feel like my forehead is sinking into my cheeks. My eyes are closing against their will. Of course, this makes walking a challenge.

I am simply waiting to react. Big mistake.

I have definitely rehearsed the scene in my mind many times. I know what I think. I know what I feel and what I want. But that things keep getting put off is really an obstacle. I have been patient, more patient than I thought I was capable of, but now I feel trapped waiting and it is really slowing me down. I want to get this over with!!!!!