Silence breeds Silence

Since I have heard nothing, I have been thinking less and less about this situation. This is a major improvement. I began this deployment nearly paralyzed by fear and feeling very dependent on my ex/partner. Things are really different now.

Things will change again when she comes home. I have no idea how she will be different and how I will react differently to her. Even as her friend it will be easy to get sucked into old patterns. I've been putting a lot of thought into that. I have absolutely no intention of abandoning her completely, so I'll certainly have to be attentive to those patterns. I suppose that could only be good for me.

I have a lot to think about while I wait.