When she really lost me

When she came home on leave in March we had a pretty intense discussion. She said that on the way home on the plane she realized that I was the only person she really wanted to see. I feel pretty certain that this is true, because she called from the Detroit airport where she was transferring planes. She almost had me.

She she lost me though, was when she was visiting me. She was looking through her carry-on bag, came upon something and said "Oh, I made this for you". She passed it back to me over her shoulder without even looking at me. It was a CD mix titled "Music to Lay in Bed and hold each other with...I look forward to each moment with you..."

There is no way she made that CD for me; the music on it is not "us" and we were not together when she made it. She had to have made it for her boyfriend (remember she was straight there for a while). She didn't know that I knew about the boyfriend.

She lied to me so easily in that moment, that she lost me, really lost me, right then.